Today was one of my first rehearsals for my monologue next week, I am performing Road by Jim Cartwright.
My monologue is the character of a girl called Louise, a lot like me in many ways and basically the monologue is her opening up for the very first time. I used to say I enjoyed Theatre due to the fact I could release all my emotions and nobody would know they were real. But then this monologue, everything about it is real to me, hence why I am having extreme difficulty in performing it - who wants their whole theatre class to know that every word of this monologue is relevant to my life.
The song that brings me into the monologue is called Try a Little Tenderness by Otis Redding - it's such a beautiful song: 'You know she's waiting, just anticipating for things that she'll never, never, never, never possess, yeah yeah' That's my favourite line.
The problem I have of me opening up is standing in the way of my much lusted 'A' in Theatre. However, now I've realized this isn't about achieving a good grade - it's about finding myself and letting go.
So guys, you've heard it here first. In about 1 hour and a half, I will be doing my mock for this monologue - and I'm going to let it go. I'm going to express my entire feelings in this piece and not give a shit about what people think.
It's time for me to show college, that I'm a unique individual person - I am not socially awkward.
Sorry for the no blog posts. College is way too hetic.
Keep Smiling, Stay Strong and Be Yourself!
Nicole xx
