Finding It Hard

Have you ever found it so hard to not talk to someone?

Eventhough you banter whenever you can; have you ever had so much history it's so hard to let go. When sometimes that's the only thing you can do?

It's getting to the end of Year 11 now and well I was going to get a leavers book but then I realized. . . Who's going to sign it? I've chosen the option to keep myself to myself and now that's left me quite alone.

There's that girl I mentioned in the post before- there was so much I wanted to write within her book and now obviously that has be wrecked. I'm not going to say because of me and I'm not going to say because of her. We just have eachother on a small fuse... maybe I do regret things that have happened and maybe it doesn't feel right anymore... but things have to be accepted. No. This is not me wanting to forget that this brawl has happened. It's me accepting it for once in my life.

You have to accept that other people have opinions of you. . . And they may be 100% wrong or they may be 100% correct but at the end of the day- you can't change someone's opinions.

There is no one in this world I can say I know enough to have a pure hatred with.

There is no one I can say know 100% about who I am.

The only things I can be sure about is the love I behold for people and the strength I have.

Yes; maybe there is times where I can't eat. Where I feel like an addiction of SI comes past my head. I'm not perfect but I can bet you- niether are you.

I love people for their imperfections! <3

Permanent Marker

Ask yourself. . .

Uk.. 3 teens every 20mins self harm.

Thinking about it? Just read this song:

Do you really believe that it helps?
Drawing on your skin
Creating those ever lasting lines
Eventhough we know it's not a sin
And eventhough it's common
Do you really want to draw them lines,
With a permanent marker.

You don't know what;
You're getting yourself in to
A life full of pain and regret
A body full of battles
Is that what you want
To be afraid of showing everything
To be afraid of yourself

Do you really believe that it helps?
Drawing on your skin
Creating those ever lasting lines
Eventhough we know it's not a sin
And eventhough it's common
Do you really want to draw them lines,
With a permanent marker.

It's an addiction
A bad way to cope
It's an addiction
A hard thing to hide
You think it's an easy way out
It's an easy way in
Are you really that prepared to suffer
And get sucked in?

Do you really believe that it helps?
Drawing on your skin
Creating those ever lasting lines
Eventhough we know it's not a sin
And eventhough it's common
Do you really want to draw them lines,
With a..

Sinister.

Dark.

Red.

Permanent Marker.

Absolutely Fuming

Have you ever been in such a muddled up state that you can't calm down? 

Have you ever felt amazingly hurt and like just plain shit?

No? Well then; I'm happy for you:)

Yes... Come and join my club.

The subject of self harm is not a matter of something you can copy- You can't use it to obtain the ideal identity of a person. As it is obtained mentally. People shouldn't taake such extreme matters because someone is rejecting who they are. Stay yourself- if people don't like who you are then they aren't people who you should be with.

End of Rant:)

Love yous!

Introducing Me...

Hey,
This is my new blog- a place for my feelings and thoughts to be written down. Somewhere where I can't get ridiculed for what I say as most of it will be a matter of opinion.

Anyway, My name is Nicole Lake. And I'm currently 16.

Fact File:
Full Name: Nicole Jade Lake
Date Of Birth: 29th December 1996
Hair Colour: Dark Brown
Eye Colour: Dark Brown
Height: Around 5ft 7ish

Took at GCSE:
English Language
English Literature
Mathematics
Triple Science
Drama
French
Religious Education
I.C.T

Taking at A Level:
Theatre Studies
English Language Literature
Psychology
Further Maths
Tudor History

Favourite Bands/Music:
Good Charlotte
Three Days Grace
Kelly Clarkson
Gary Barlow
Avenged Sevenfold
The Script

Favourite Film(s):
Drive Angry (2011)
Les Miserables (2012)

Favourite Actor & Actresses:
Jennifer Anniston
Cam Gigandet
Nicholas Cage
Gerald Butler
Whoopi Goldberg
Darren Criss

Favourite TV Show:
Glee (All Seasons)

Skeleton Behind The Closest:
I thought if I was introducing myself- I'd mention everything.

I am currently suffering from the addiction of 'cutting' as a coping mechanism. Do not judge me from this- As I am still a person; just with history and problems: Just like you!

I'm not doing a lot of controversial subjects on here but Self Harm will occur every so often. My first post WILL be informing those and educating those who know nothing about the subject of Self Harm.

Youtube Channel:
Beargirl5521 (Updates with Vlogs)