It's the end of study leave and now I have returned to College - the only difference is I'm single and scared of talking to everybody and anybody.
Throughout my first year of college, I have spent a majority of my dinners, breaks and frees with my now ex boyfriend. Due to this, and previous High School events, I have struggled very much to make friends and become comfortable at college. Now at the moment, I am feeling even more uncomfortable as I don't have the boyfriend to keep me company.
My problem is I am afraid of any sort of rejection, I'm afraid of being told people don't like me, I'm afraid of being left out and most importantly I'm afraid of being hurt.
I promised my Mum that when I returned to college, I would message people to meet with them and it's my first day and I still opted to go to the Library instead of messaging genuine people who have already offered a lot of times. I'm spending dinner with my Nan because I'm afraid of spending dinner with people who may dislike me or not approve of me.
The aim of this post is to learn from my mistakes. You need more than one person to depend on in your life, you need your friends! If I started college about 3 years ago, I'd be smiling and happily making friends and just being myself. College is supposed to be a new start - don't let anything ruin your new start for you.
Remember, stay strong & keep smiling!
Nicole xx
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